Kiranmayi Blog

I slept that night and woke up late in the morning. I looked into the mirror and screamed, cried, yelled "It's not me" . "It's just not me." I collected myself together with great difficult, and dragged my feet to the washroom. As my hands got busy carrying out the routine tasks;  I was able to focus on my mind and the million thoughts running therein. The news I had received the previous evening had made my mind go numb. All my dreams were shattered, my life had come to a standstill. I had no hope left and probably, nobody had any hope from me. It's not me. It's just not me. It can't be me. Wasn't I the topper for 10 continuous years in school? Wasn't I the role model and inspiration for all my younger cousins? Wasn't I the Star of the Family? Then how could I fail? I, who didn't know the meaning of "failure" till yesterday, had failed. Miserably failed. Not just one, but I had failed in "all...

Dear Kiran (aged 30) Hi !  *waves hand* *high five* I'm SO excited to meet you! I often hear that your version of me will be more sensible and mature. And when I turn into you, my life will be more stabilized and will finally be in a position to fulfill all my life long dreams. No wonder I'm so excited to meet you! But, there are certain things wish to know. First of all, how similar are you to me? Or rather, how different are you from me? Is the change too dramatic? I know change is an essential part of life, but I wish to maintain my authenticity and remain true to my Core Inner Self throughout my life. Have I managed to do that? Despite all our difference, is our "Essence"  the same? Next about my dreams. How many of my dreams do you see fulfilled? Or, are our dreams and desires different? Do you find my dreams to be silly and childish? What are YOUR dreams and goals? Uff…too many questions, right? I'm sorry for t...